January 29, 2020

Winter Contest 2020!


Members Only ● Works Published in 2019

Deadline: Midnight March 1st, 2020

The InScribe Winter Contest is now open for submissions by InScribe members who had writing published in 2019.

Professional writers/judges will follow the rubrics posted on the InScribe website to mark and provide commentary on each piece. (If fewer than 4 submissions are received in a category, the category will be closed and fees will be returned). One prize of $100 will be awarded to the winning submission in each category. Prizes will be awarded by April 30, 2020, or sooner. Please check the publicly posted rubrics for your Winter Contest submissions.


·      Members in good standing (membership must be paid up)
·      All entries must have been published between January 1 and December 31 of 2019
·      Publication sources include magazines, anthologies, newspapers, online publications, etc.
·      Not accepted: online pieces that you self-published on your own online site. They must be published on a 3rd party site. 
·      Deadline March 1st, midnight, 2020.
·      Fee: $30 per entry by cheque (includes commentary by a professional writer/judge).
·      Email two copies of each piece to contests@inscribe.org by midnight March 1st, 2020
·      1) The first copy should be a scan of your published piece (or a link). It must clearly show your name as author, the date of publication, and name of publication (magazine etc.)
2). The second copy will be exactly the same piece but without your name, and without any photos, advertising, name of the publication source or any other distraction. Please block these out of the scanned piece. If that is not possible, then please re-type it into a Word or PDF Document. Do not put your name on it. This copy will be sent on to the judge. The goal is to make all pieces consistent in appearance, without advertising or pictures, and without the author’s name, to eliminate bias and distractions for the judges.  
·      Simultaneous submissions are acceptable
·      Multiple submissions welcomed—fees must accompany each entry
·      Mail entry fee cheque to InScribe, PO Box 68025, Edmonton ABT6C 4N6
·      Make cheques out to full name of InScribe Christian Writers’Fellowship
·      Subject field of your email: InScribe Winter Contest
·      Body of your email – two copies of your published piece, your name and all your contact info, and confirmation that your cheque will be mailed by March 1st at the latest.


·      Non-fiction
·      Poetry – free verse or rhymed
·      Fiction – Short Story or Drama Script
·      Devotional

Watch for more information and details to come on our website http://inscribe.org/contests/
Questions? Please direct them to contests@inscribe.org

January 28, 2020

Diligence: My 2020 Vision - Bruce Atchison

I'm not usually one who chooses mottos or listens for a word for each year but 2020 is different. I feel that "diligence" should be my watchword. The Bible certainly has plenty to say about the subject.

The Proverbs of Solomon are a rich source for gleaning wisdom. Proverbs 10:4 (BBE) reminds us, "He who is slow in his work becomes poor, but the hand of the ready worker gets in wealth."

I need to remind myself of that whenever I feel like checking my e-mail or watching YouTube videos. Practically none of that activity results in inspiring blog post ideas. It doesn't help me write my next book either.

Neither do I want to be under the economic thumb of any one but I'd rather earn money for the work I love doing. As Proverbs 12:24 (BBE) advises, "The hand of the ready worker will have authority, but he who is slow in his work will be put to forced work."

Likewise, I don't want opportunities to go to waste. Using a hunting metaphor, Solomon advises in Proverbs 12:27 (BBE) that, "He who is slow in his work does not go in search of food; but the ready worker gets much wealth."

I especially must master my wandering mind. It usually veers into the proverbial weeds instead of keeping focused on the path of creativity. Proverbs 21:5 (BBE) is a good reminder of this. "The purposes of the man of industry have their outcome only in wealth; but one who is over-quick in acting will only come to be in need."

Of course some apparent sloth is due to illness. I suffer from sleep apnea and using the CPAP machine gave me the horrors. Consequently, I feel groggy for the first part of my day and I sleep longer at night.

What I've decided to do is to use the groggy times for goofing off and the alert times for productivity. Much of what I do during the early part of my day is unimportant so it doesn't matter if I waste time then.

And since I can gain knowledge at any hour of the day or night through the Internet, I'll use those times of alertness for research. As Proverbs 18:15 (BBE) says, "The heart of the man of good sense gets knowledge; the ear of the wise is searching for knowledge."

I thank the Lord that he gave me the gift of writing and the even better gift of solitude. Both will certainly help me be creative but only if I use the opportunity of wakefulness to the maximum possible effect.

January 27, 2020

Trying on Words by Lorilee Guenter

In response to the question what verse or word have you chosen for 2020, I started trying on words. In the past I have chosen focus words. Two of them still grace my wall as a reminder to continue on. When I tried on words for 2020 none of the words fit well. Just like when nothing fits well during a clothes shopping trip, I chose to walk away instead of forcing an uncomfortable choice that I would leave unused.

I left the word store empty handed, knowing I would not leave God's word empty minded. I have never chosen a focus verse for a year. There are too many and God teaches me through them all as I need. I had no plans or desire to choose just one verse. But then as I went about my days, a verse I memorized years ago began to inhabit my thoughts. "For I have not given you a spirit of fear but of..." Accompanied by this verse I tried on a new word: courage. There are many ways this word can and will be an encouragement and motivation for me this year. Among other things it builds on my most recent previous word: faith; since faith drives out fear. The NIV uses timidity in place of fear in this verse. Boldness fits just as well as courage when I try it on.

I continued to meditate on this verse before settling on my word for 2020. Since context is important I added the whole of 2 Timothy to my reading and meditation, though not memorization. Between my digging into this short letter to Timothy and the ladies Bible study I am part of, the second half of the verse came into focus "...but a spirit of power, of love, and of self-control." Some versions, including the NIV, use self-discipline instead of self-control. These two descriptors can seem impossible when changing long standing habits. Yet I find promise in this verse. I have been given God's power through the Holy Spirit because of His love, therefore self-discipline and habit change are no longer impossible. I know this to be true since I have seen it played out repeatedly through the years.

Bruce and I pray regularly not only for eyes to see the opportunities God has prepared in advance for us and ears to hear His voice, but also courage to act. We know this is a prayer God will answer if we are sincere. Now I am adding to it that I will have the boldness that comes through His Spirit to use the gifts He has given me to encourage and build up those around me. I also pray this for those around me because power guided by love will accomplish amazing things for God's glory.

To start 2020 my verse is 2 Timothy 1:7 "For I have not given you a spirit of fear (timidity), but a spirit of power, of love, and of self-control (self-discipline)."

January 26, 2020

A Word is a Word - Marnie Pohlmann

“You know you are a testimony, don’t you?”

Inwardly, I shrunk away from the thought.  This wasn’t the first time someone had said that to me, and it wasn’t the first-time regret, disappointment, and even shame were my responses.
Yes, I was a testimony - a bad testimony.

Over the last few years circumstances have pulled me into a deep vortex of darkness. Physically, emotionally, mentally, and spiritually; every piece of me has been shaken and overwhelmed. I relate well to Job in the Bible, who had one catastrophe after another spin his life out of control. And while Job did angrily tell God it would have been better if he had never been born, he still, in the pile of mourning ashes, agreed that God is God, even when Job didn’t understand His ways.

In our Christian walk, there will come a time when we must realize God is not only loving but also just. God divides right from wrong. God decides good and bad. While God wants to and does give His people good things, He does so even in what we would consider “bad” ways. God is not mean, He is holy. God is not a “genie in a bottle” who gives us what we want, He is our Father who provides all we need as well as the desires that He plants in our hearts.

And like a rebellious child, we sometimes don’t like the life God leads us in.

A popular worship song speaks of the way we as Christians are encouraged to respond to God throughout our life.
“You give and take away.
You give and take away.
And still, my heart will say,
Blessed be the name of the Lord.”
                                                         (Blessed Be Your Name - Tree63)

Even in difficult times, we worship a God who redeems our struggles. He makes dry bones dance. He waters the desert places. He surrounds us when flames of disappointment burn our soul.

And this is where my testimony fails.

I want to be that faithful Christian who always praises God. And in public, with my hair combed, makeup covering sleep-deprived eyes, and a smile pasted on my face, perhaps it appears I am just that. One doctor commented, “You look very put together for someone who is so depressed.”

It’s not that I am trying to be something I am not or that I put on a mask. God knows who I am when I am with others or alone. And while I may look “put together” in my faith on the outside, I am still truthful about my struggles. Anyone who asks will know what is really going on with me.

I don’t believe I have lost faith in God. I still believe.  Yet I have a difficult time being thankful for the path I continue to stumble along. I do not always feel joy, even knowing there is an eternity beyond the dark moments of despair.

Yet, even though I can be honest and admit I did not actively live my faith during these years, I can also see how God redeems my failure.

I can say I believe but I struggle in my belief.
I can say I believe, and I struggle in my belief.

Do you see the difference?

but… or and

Both are conjunctive, joining two parts of a sentence. The two parts of the sentence say the same thing, so that little word in the middle is what makes the difference in how I say this.

A word is a word is a word. Right? Or is it?

As much as it may be important to choose a word or phrase that will focus your determination towards your actions each day of the year, it is also important to lay aside any word or phrase that holds you back from moving forward.

While on long-term disability from work, I was assigned a counselor who was to help find practical ways I could handle anxiety in my life so I could return to work. She spoke about rephrasing, which my education in communication and counseling had already covered. Catch your thought, recognize the lie, and change that thought to the truth. There is great power in rephrasing. Scripture teaches it as “renewing the mind.” What this counselor shared about rephrasing, though, was a small difference that can have a great impact on me.

But - a word that often begins an excuse, a reason why something will not work or cannot work. But is often used as a word of defeat. “I can go for a walk, but it is cold outside.” But negates the walk because it is cold.

And - this word offers a choice. There are two sides, equal in truth or importance. “I can go for a walk and it is cold outside.” Two truths to consider. One does not negate the other. I can go for a walk and because it is cold outside - I will dress for it. Or I can go for a walk and it is cold outside - so I will use the treadmill.

Struggling in my Christian walk - or in life - is not the failure it feels like. The truth is my struggle is included as part of my testimony. The past few years have been difficult, and I have lost many of my healthy habits, both physically and spiritually. Basic things like breathing, eating, sleeping, journaling, and even reading Scripture have become areas that need to be relearned. I’m glad I was encouraged to memorize Scripture as a child, so God’s word is never far away.

So, I think my word for 2020 needs to be and. I am not in control of all areas of my life, and God is in control of all areas of my life. I still struggle and I have choices.

A word is a word and one small word, whether thought, spoken, or written, can make a difference.

January 25, 2020

Lessons From The Dental Chair by Sharon Heagy

Happy New Year?  Then what was I doing at the dentist office on January second?  While I am thankful for these folks who dare to gaze into our facial caverns, I must say…. they make me nervous.  In the past, nerves caused my feet to unwillingly suspend off the end of the dentist’s chair. This has not happened in awhile due to the trust built between me and my Doctor.  But now I have a new guy.  After 40 years with the same person prodding and poking around, I now have a new guy. Ugh. And not only is there a new guy, there is a new chair which can only be accessed from one side.  The side closest to the dentist. Not closest to the escape hatch, I mean door. I sidled over to the ominous chair. My cold clammy palm led the way as if it could protect or warn the rest of my body for what was to come. Ready for cold, stiff plastic it slid across smooth black fabric in surprise.  The leather was soft and inviting and the rest of my body followed, enticed by the promise of comfort.  Perhaps it was a trap. My pounding heart rate was diminishing. I was getting comfortable.

The dentist and assistant chatted a bit in ‘Dentaleze’ then turned their attention to me. Commands came thick and fast.  ‘Open, close, turn towards me, more, wider’. I responded to each command promptly like a dental recruit. Obedient to the voice of this stranger. A stranger.

 My obedience is not so quick when I hear the voice of my Father who loves me and knows every hair on my head.  If my curly mop was God’s paint by number, there would be a shade for each strand. But I find myself like Paul, “I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do” (Romans 7:15NIV) I hesitate and form excuses and think ‘Don’t you trust Him? If you really trusted him your obedience would be instant. Like God’s good recruit.

Obedience is a learned concept and I am a work in progress. God is teaching and encouraging me to be intentional, to respond to his voice immediately with words like Samuel’s, “Speak, Lord, for your servant is listening.” (I Samuel 3:10b) To what end?  To be a better daughter of the King? For my own well being? Because He said so?  The short answer is a resounding yes.  But if I desire to be an instrument, tuned to the Lord to accomplish His purposes, to instill hope in others through my words, spoken or written, obedience is critical.

In this crumbling fallen world there is a sense of hopelessness. Many people echo the words of Lamentations 3:19-20. They remember their affliction, lack of direction and bitterness. Their souls are downcast in despair. They stop and stew and dwell, wallowing in the pit. As authors of anecdotes and craftsmen of words, may we join other keepers of the Light, and lead folks onward to Lamentations 3:21-23, “Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.”  I am called to be obedient.

Obedience and hope are inseparable. Two words that will not only be my focus but will also be my prayer for every faith filled artist in every medium. May each one’s work abound in hopefulness for a Happy New Year indeed.

January 24, 2020

The Immeasurable Reach of God by Valerie Ronald

I prefer a window seat when I fly, one back from the wing for an unobstructed view. Leaning my forehead against the rectangular window, I can see the miniature scenes below becoming smaller and smaller as the plane gains altitude. Aeronautics is a science, I know, but there is a mysticism to the vast altitudes a plane can reach. It is the visual picture I imagine when reading Ephesians 2:4 & 5.

“But because of His great love for us, God, who is rich in mercy, made us alive with Christ even when we were dead in transgressions --- it is by grace you have been saved.”

These have become my life verses because I see encapsulated in them the immeasurable reach of God in saving a wretch like me. God “made me alive with Christ even when I was dead in transgressions.” Is there any span greater than this? I was an enemy of God, wallowing in sin with no thought of my Creator, yet He reached down to pick me out of the muck of a broken world and raised me up to sit beside Christ in the highest heaven. It makes me dizzy to imagine being transported such an immense distance!

There are times when my repeated, stumbling transgressions overwhelm me with sadness and make me long for perfection. Who am I to receive God’s grace? If I have these thoughts as a forgiven child of God, how much farther did He have to reach when I was buried under mountains of sin, a dark, lifeless soul? I did not even know I needed a Savior. But God did. And He intervened, “because of His great love with which He loved me,” says one scripture version. He loved me even when I was terribly unlovable because His mercy is so rich, immense and generous that it lifted me up on a swelling wave of love to seat me next to Jesus in heaven.

“Measure how high heaven is above the earth; God’s wide, loving, kind heart is greater for those who revere Him. You see, God takes all our crimes --- our seemingly inexhaustible sins --- and removes them. As far as the east is from the west, He removes them from us.” (Ps. 103:11-12 The Voice)

God’s mercy is an unknowable reckoning. It isn’t just benevolence or leniency but an actual removal of our sins onto His Son, Jesus, the perfect sin offering. Mercy means we do not get the punishment we deserve. Grace means we do get the salvation we do not deserve. This makes my head spin if I try to work it through my own finite mind. Though I cannot know how it happens, I am grateful to accept by faith the gift of His grace.

These verses from Ephesians resonate in the back of my mind when I am writing about the Christian journey. They motivate me to do my best to convey the immensity of who God is and what He has done in a way that will touch souls who long for God. The distance between what I write and the incomprehensible being of God is as far as the east is from the west, yet I will always reach for the next word to give a small glimpse of His wonder.

Attempting to figure out what keeps a multi-ton metal airplane full of people and luggage in the air will bring me to the end of my knowledge quickly. So I choose to sit back and enjoy the journey, admiring the view of God’s beautiful creation from 35,000 feet, trusting the aeronautical engineers and commercial pilots know what they are doing.

The reason I can do the same with God’s perfect plan of salvation is because I trust the Omnipotent Designer, "whose love knows no limit, whose grace has no measure, His power no boundary known unto men." (excerpt from hymn, He Giveth More Grace, by Annie Johnson Flint)

More of my devotionals can be read on my blog https://scriptordeus.wordpress.com

January 23, 2020

At My Right Hand by Joy Bailey


I have yet to meet an accountant who is not methodical in their ways.

Forgive me if that sounds like typecasting. It’s really not. 

The accountant who used to do our taxes, before he retired, was tall, bean-pole thin, with long bony fingers that were never still. He had a receding chin and a 1970’s-style moustache, and he liked to talk about racehorses. A unique character. 

But when it came to doing his job, he was very methodical. Every piece of paperwork we gave him was placed neatly on his desk, with the edges squared up. Like-documents were dutifully paper-clipped together. His pen was always in his upper left shirt pocket.

Likewise the business we use for our home insurance. It is a family-run business, where all of the agents and technicians share common offices. We have met with one young agent several times, each time in a different office. But every office is identical in the way it is set up.

Because I’m a student of human behaviour, I took note of this young agent’s demeanor. He was efficient and focused. I believe one of the reasons he could be so was because no matter which office we met in, his tools were always in the same location. Computer on the desk, stapler in the top left drawer, calculator in the right. He didn’t have to stop to think where to find the tools of his trade. They were right at hand.  


I know that Bible commentaries tell us “at my right hand” is significant because 
In biblical times, the right hand was the most distinguished position, reserved for one’s chief adviser and supporter.  


… a position of defense or protection. To have one at our right hand is to have one near us who can defend us. 

But the very first thing that came to my mind when the LORD drew me to Psalm 16:8 as my verse for this month, if not the whole year, was the picture of that young insurance agent reaching into his right drawer for his calculator, without even thinking about it.

Because I have set the LORD continually before me, He is within easy reach. I don’t even need to think about it. It should be a natural reflex to reach for Him no matter the circumstances. 

Like a child reaching for her father’s hand, certain it will be there every time. 


I have set the LORD continually before me;
Because He is at my right hand, I will not be shaken.
Psalm 16:8


Joy lives and writes in Edmonton. 
You can find her at Scraps of Joy.

January 22, 2020

“Rest” For 2020 by Alan Anderson

Matthew 11: 28-29—Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me; for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.

I don’t have a practice of choosing a verse or word for a particular year. I’m giving it a shot for 2020. My key word is, “rest.”

No sooner had the New Year 2020 started reality reminded me the world acts as it is accustomed. You and I are bombarded by all sorts of in your face disruption and mankind’s cruelty to each other. Tragedies like the Jan. 8 plane crash woke me up to the fact of great sadness all over the world.

I’m tired of it all. What is the answer to all this weariness, this reality of being “heavy laden?” Is there an answer? As a storyteller who is a Christian I know there is. There is only one answer and no other. The words of Christ noted at the beginning of this post offer the answer. To those who come to Him, He offers rest.

I admit the yoke of the world, its ways of life, can weigh me down. This yoke is too much and difficult to bear. These days with so much sin, confusion and disorder being tolerated, I want to fade away. My thoughts taunt me by saying I don’t feel safe and I don’t fit in. The temptation to find a place to run away can be inviting.

Matthew 11:28-29 speaks to me. The words call me back and remind me of my deep need. There is a place of safety, of rest, from the storms of life and calamities of our world. I need to remind myself of this gentle rest. I need rest found only in God. This rest is not found in the world. Coming to God is the only way. I know this is basic to our lives if we are Christians.

Years ago my family doctor suggested I relax more. I can’t say I listened and in 1997 I began two years of burnout and depression. This dark time caused me to reflect on what I did to myself to come to this time of burnout. I took on too much to please other people. I know I have considered this time in my life in another InScribe post or two. The thing is as I reflect on this even today I am still learning from it.

Years have gone by since my burnout and depression but I still need rest. This rest allows me to be calm and patient even in the midst of the agonies of the world and those I love. I’m not always successful in this. This takes self-discipline for me, as I’m prone to worry about my family and others. When my wife had cancer surgery two years ago I must say it robbed me of rest. She reminded me of her attitude rest is possible even in such circumstance.

From a personal perspective, I rest and lay aside from performing for people, in doing things I think will stand me in good stead with others. I try to be at peace with the people in my world who don’t always understand me. I try to be at peace with decisions I make regarding relationships with others, including family, friends, and strangers.

I have “come” to God through Jesus and I realize I am in the world but not of it. To embrace, and never let go of Christ’s yoke is rest. Like all Christians, I too am to be Christ-like. I am to show what “rest” looks like to the world. I can walk with Him in peace and rest.

Oh, God, help me show your rest to all I meet.


January 21, 2020

2020 Vision - Clarity by Tracy Krauss

At the risk of being cliché, I was excited by the obvious "2020 Vision" motif that many people were talking about for this year. I had thought of other potential key words, but I knew the opportunity to incorporate this into my plans for 2020 wouldn’t come again - ever!

The word 'CLARITY' came to mind as I was pondering the idea of a clearer vision for the new year, but then health issues helped make the choice 'clear'. Fatigue, chest pain, and other symptoms of my recently diagnosed congestive heart failure started to surface in November and December. I realized I needed to give up a lot of my busyness – a habit I had fallen back into in the twelve to eighteen months since my heart attack and by-pass surgery two and a half years ago. Lessons I'd learned about 'letting go' and focusing on what God wanted, not what I wanted, had become blurred. 

But now I know I have to start letting go again, and in order to do that I need CLARITY as to what things I must do and what things I must give up. The choices have not been easy, but with them I have felt contentment and peace. 

The first thing I let go of was taking on too much substitute teaching. Just the thought of going to the school - despite the fact that I had loved my job as a teacher when I worked full time - brought feelings of stress resulting in chest pain. The extra money is nice, but I still work part-time as an online teacher and my husband has a good job, so I decided this was the first thing that I must strike off the list. 

Besides being on our local Arts Council, I was asked if I would join the regional board this year. The Peace Liard Regional Arts Council covers a wide geographic area in BC from Fort Nelson to Tumbler Ridge, encompassing six communities. They put on an annual juried art exhibit, host a writers' conference, and do many other special projects throughout the region. It would mean travelling to more meetings, but I felt excited about the opportunity to be involved in the wider Arts' scene. Believe it or not, I actually like being on boards and I am passionate about the arts, so it seemed like a no-brainer. But... I knew I needed to let it go. 

Speaking of boards, I had been approached about letting my name stand at our local church's next AGM. I love my church and was thinking seriously about ways to serve. I don't plan to do so, however, and I have decided to also scale back my involvement with the music ministry in our church. I have been on a regular rotation to lead worship and often play the piano or sing back-up as well. I see clearly that it is time to let others step into these roles.

Even though I felt absolutely at ease about releasing all of these items, there was one that I had a harder time with. I was hanging on to the Easter Passion Play I had initiated. 

I am a long time theatre director and have a passion for amateur drama. When I taught Drama at high school, I produced and directed two major productions each year. When I retired from public school, the thing I missed most that first year was Drama. So, in October of 2019 I facilitated a Drama Camp for children that helped fill that void, but then, last fall, I decided to organize and direct a Passion Play in my community - something I had been dreaming about for a quarter century but never seemed to have the time to do. I started recruiting and formed a local theatre group for that purpose. 

But... as the new year approached, I knew in my heart that I also had to let this one go. I told myself that I was doing the play for God's glory, but when I examined my heart, I saw that any 'passion' for the Passion Play was gone and all that was left was my pride. I didn't want to admit that it was too much for me. At our first rehearsal in January, I announced that I was stepping down as director, but if anyone else wanted to take it on they were welcome to do so. I was surprised to see such relief from most of the actors. Some said they were only doing it because they knew how much it meant to me. That was CLARITY.

Basically, I am left with three things that I feel God has shown me that I should continue to focus on in 2020. 1. My own writing  2. InScribe  3. HCOS (my online teaching job)
All three are centred on Christ and afford opportunities to pour into the lives of others. I feel I can balance these three now that I am no longer pulled in so many other directions.

As a final thought, I have to smile when I think about God's timing and perhaps even his sense of humour. CLARITY, which fits so well with the idea of '2020 Vision', is ironic for me in more ways than one. As a person who was born with a congenital eye condition and who has been 'eye doctoring' all her life - even going blind for a time after multiple surgeries - I have never actually experienced 2020 vision in my life! 

In February of 2019 I had more eye surgery on my remaining 'good' eye, with no guarantees that I would be able to see afterward. Thankfully, I recovered well, but it brought into focus (pun intended) my need to ‘focus’ on the important things and let go of the rest.

I need CLARITY this year – both physically and figuratively - and with God's help I hope to move forward in 2020 with new vision for what's really important.

1 Corinthians 13: 12
For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known. (ESV)

Tracy Krauss is serving as InScribe's current President. She lives in beautiful Tumbler Ridge, BC, but is a Saskatchewan girl at heart. Visit her website: https://tracykrauss.com for more. - fiction on the edge without crossing the line -