My post in January reflected on “rest” as my word for 2020. Words from the book of Matthew helped plan my thoughts.
Matthew 11: 28-29—"Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me; for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.”
Here is part of what I said in my January post.
“I admit the yoke of the world, its ways of life, can weigh me down. This yoke is too much and difficult to bear. These days, with so much sin, confusion and disorder being tolerated, I want to fade away. My thoughts taunt me by saying I don’t feel safe and I don’t fit in. The temptation to find a place to run away can be a difficult invitation to resist.”
Now, as the end of the year draws closer, rest is still a need. I admit as I write this post; I am tired.
I am tired:
- · Tired of not being with my family
- · Tired of my church family being split up for now
- · Tired COVID-19 cases increase daily here in British Columbia
- · Tired of a consequence of my diagnosis of extreme obstructive sleep apnea continues to affect my ability to concentrate
- · Tired of Zoom meetings and events because I find them a challenge to concentrate on
- · Tired of people and their agitation toward healthcare professionals
- · Tired of not being able to sit in a coffee shop and people watch and write
- · I am tired of noting things that cause my tiredness
I find the reality of rest found in God is a process. I am getting there, but I have not arrived. Matthew 11:28-29 speaks to me. The promised words embrace my soul. “…I will give you rest… you will find rest for your souls.” The words remind me of my deep need and a promised gentle rest. This is not an elusive emotional longing, but a stated result of an honest heart after God.
Throughout this tumultuous year I can still laugh, rest, love, and write. I relate several of my writing projects to emotional healing. I wrote a four-part series on writing as healing for InScribe’s, FellowScript Magazine. This offered time to reflect on the power of writing to be an aid to emotional healing. I also began a writing project that has been brewing in my mind for years. I mentioned this in my August 22 InScribe post (Plant Them a Garden: A Work of Reflection and Poetry by Alan Anderson). I look forward to sending this book into the world in 2021, Lord willing.
God has given me the privilege and call to be a writer. I write to give people hope in the presence of grief and hardship. I find rest when I write. I hope what I write gives God pleasure. I am tired and I have found rest.
InScribe family of writers, in what way does what you write impact your life?