S is for Self-Examination by Susan Barclay

 

A few years ago, I took an in-person writing course on spiritual autobiography. While it was fascinating both to explore many examples, concepts, and tools, one thing that stood out is the requirement of self-examination. To write one's spiritual autobiography, the writer needs to look closely at herself in "the mirror," reflecting on the transformational events in her life that have shaped her.

One of the authors whose works we considered in this course is David G. Benner.* In his book The Gift of Being Yourself: the Sacred Call to Self-Discovery, he says,

Christian spirituality involves a transformation of the self that occurs only when God and self are both deeply known. Both, therefore, have an important place in Christian spirituality. There is no deep knowing of God without a deep knowing of self, and no deep knowing of self without a deep knowing of God. John Calvin wrote, “Nearly the whole of sacred doctrine consists in these two parts: knowledge of God and of ourselves.

Benner warns that

Unless we spend as much time looking at God as we spend looking at our self, our knowing of our self will simply draw us further and further into an abyss of self-fixation.

I think we can agree that we see all around us today the effects of self-absorption, selfishness, and navel-gazing, in societies that have become more hostile to the things of God and to an awareness of God. That's a post (perhaps) for another day.

But what are the benefits of self-examination for writers, whether or not we are writing spiritual autobiography? Why is it important to have a strong sense of who we are? I think there are a few reasons.

God has a plan and a purpose for each of our lives, to give us a hope and a future (ref Jeremiah 29:11). When we work from a place of understanding who we are in Him, and know that we're in the centre of His will, it gives us courage and strength to go where He leads us because we know that we are working alongside of Him and He is with us (ref Joshua 1:9). 

Having a strong sense of who we are also: 

- helps us to determine what we are meant to write.

- helps us know why we are the ones best positioned to write this particular story, book, poem, devotional, or article.

- helps us know who our audience is, whether we are writing for seniors, adults, teens, or children.

- provides a framework for writing in a way best suited to us: using pen and paper or a computer; working in a noisy or quiet atmosphere; writing to the sounds of nature, classical music, or pop; writing in the wee hours of the morning or late into the night; working in a coffee shop, home office, library, sunroom, or kitchen.

“We do not find our true self by seeking it. Rather, we find it by seeking God.” (Benner)

How well you know God determines how well you know yourself. Are you seeking (spending time with) Him each day? Do you know if you're stewarding your gifts well? What can you do today to get to know Him and yourself better? 

 

[*For the record, I don't necessarily endorse Benner's contemporary work. He has gone further into mysticism than I am personally comfortable with...]

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