I’m not sure when the shift happened, but somewhere in the last few years, I went from enjoying the excitement and variety of new opportunities, to being overwhelmed by them. Is it my age? Mental fatigue? The demands of the new job? Our fast-paced digital world? Maybe it’s a combination of all four.
What is important is that my lifestyle made my mind and my life noisy. And that was really irritating. So I brought to the Lord this aggravation, and my feeling of helplessness to change, admitting that it was probably all my fault (because I’ve always tended to be divergent, and bite off more than I can chew), and asked Him for help.
Over the summer and fall I rediscovered the simple life-giving moments of being at rest—physically, mentally, emotionally. Sometimes all it took to get that peace was two or three deep breaths, and insisting that all thoughts halt for a few seconds.
Soon I found myself guarding that peace, by avoiding activities that put me back into that “noisy” mode, yet have little or no significant purpose. I began trusting more and more that God would lead me to the writing activities of his choice, and he would decide if my words ever saw the light of day. I am also less likely to say “yes” these days, when I feel “no” (both to people in my life, and to my self!).
I used to wonder how in the world I was going to get all my writing goals accomplished. Now, as I look forward, most of my anxiety and impatience has been traded for a sense of anticipation. I can rest, trusting that the words God wants me to write will be given to my quiet heart and mind, and given out as a blessing to the readers he chooses. What a relief!
It seems to me that the world, the needs of the world, and attempting to manage these needs, get more and more complicated by the day. But they are not problematic to our Counselor. He is wise, unhurried, and unalarmed if our society fails to find solutions. He has his plans, and he has his people to join with him in carrying them out in his way, in his time.
“In returning and rest you shall be saved;
In quietness and confidence shall be your strength.”
Posted by Ramona