I
gaze at the map as it once again lays open on the table. It is well used, crinkled,
and faded. Spills have stained it, hiding parts of the contoured landscape.
Some of the folds have torn from being manipulated too many times while
studying the way to go, and by constantly trying to restore it to its original
state. Highlights and ink spin a web of trails across the country, circling
some of the special places I have enjoyed.
I
consider a starting point and my finger traces along the road to see how far I
have been. Like a maze, though, I follow the path only to remember how I had turned
back to find another way. I recall those trips. Sometimes I had become lost.
Other times, a rabbit trail took me off the planned route.
Backing
away from the table, I look at the map from further away. Overall, it seems I
have not traveled to many destinations I had meant to visit. Some of my friends
have shared wonderful stories of their adventures to those places; places for
book releases, successful sales, or awards.
On
the table beside the map is my Bible. Pen and highlights mark the pages.
Corners are folded and some pages are glued together from sticky fingerprints.
It is well used. Flipping through the thin sheets, I can trace the journey of
my life through this map, too.
With
a sigh I take a closer look at the journey of my life. Am I disappointed? A
little. The map shows trails I had not been meant to travel. There were times I
walked shortcuts through dangerous terrain, daring the darkness to overtake me.
And there were times I followed the direction of people I should not have
listened to. Yet although I have not traveled to where I had wanted, or to where I thought
I wanted, I have discovered some exciting and special places I will never
forget. And I have had wonderful companions on many of my adventures.
My
eyes shift between my marked map and my marked Bible. I overlay some of the onion
paper with highlighted Scripture onto my worn map and see how God has spoken to
me throughout my journey. God’s Word has provided teaching, rebuking,
correcting, and training. On the rabbit trails, He gently showed me His truth that
redirected my path. In the dark times, He provided protection and comfort,
encouraging me to make better choices in how and where I traveled. When I was lost,
God’s light shone on the path He desired me to follow.
Both
my map and my Bible look tattered but are filled with who I am, and who I desire
to be.
I close
my Bible and gather the map, once more folding it along the ever-thinning creases.
The result is an uneven bulk of paper. It does not look like it was meant to any
more than my journey looks like I meant it to look, but it is still what it is. The map reflects
my past and reveals the place where I presently find myself.
I
tuck the map into my Bible, ready to continue my travels, wherever the journey
may take me. I try now to depend more on God’s map than my own, so I am sure to
discover delightful company and destinations, all of which will provide new
marks on the map - my map, that tells my story. This is the story I write
about and share.
“Your Word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path.”
(Psalm
119:105 NASB)
Read about Marnie's journey on her blog, Phosphorescent.
