I apologize. Every time I post here, something goes wrong. The stuff sticks itself in draft form forever or else appears on the wrong day and squeezes another author's writing to the bottom of the page.
How does that happen? I have no idea. I think I am following the clear directions, so it must be the computer, right? But what if it isn’t? What if the fault is me? What if people are not reading my scribbles because I subconsciously shoot myself in the foot/mouth every time?
What if I believe what I say has no value but I post because it’s my time slot? What if I am secretly hoping to fail so that I can blame my lack of success on something that is not me? What if I really do not have anything worthy to say?
To enlarge on that topic, what if my book isn’t published because I never send or have enough stamps on hand or the time is not right, or my Mom doesn’t like it?
Surely, I am not the only one suffering from delusional, hypocritical, self-devaluating thoughts, am I? (Please say no!!)
Writers must be courageous, for we put ourselves on the line every day. We must develop the ability to face difficulty, uncertainty, or worse, without being overcome by fear or being deflected from our chosen course of writing action.
What if I decided to overcome my computer/fear by only posting on my exact day, the 20th of the month. (Unfortunately, the 20th of last month slipped by without notice on my part…of course, there was that time change and the computer didn’t automatically turn over…sigh!)
What if I have more work to do in the courage department?
Brenda J Wood